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License to Go

August 30, 2010

While I was gone for ten days last month, the group reflected on where we are and specifically what I do within AAC. The exercise, and the following month of reflection and feedback, have been valuable in distilling our vision and who I am in the group. Self awareness is an integral component in a good life, and feedback is integral to self awareness. Meanwhile the good life is one lived in harmony with one’s interests and gifts. Do what you are good at, don’t waste away doing other things. So I am blessed to be part of something where people care enough to reflect with me and piece together a role that will make life worthwhile.

Here is the general feedfback Paul assimilated regarding my role with AAC according to those within the group:

  • I am the Face of AAC
  • Organizer of AAC (Administration)
  • Promoter
  • One of many leaders
  • Writer
  • Dreamer
  • Vision Caster
  • One who brings people to AAC (Initiator)
  • Thinker
  • Facilitator
  • Engages in conversation (networking)
  • The link between AAC and other churches or groups

In summary I am ordainted “for ministry,” more specifically as a visionary, dreamer and “apostle.” The latter term has been molded by Alan Hirsch in a book we read together last year, The Forgotten Ways Handbook.

Excerpts from Hirsch regarding the apostle:

  • “Without apostolic ministry, the rest of the APEST ministries have no practical reference point and therefore lack legitimacy.  As such, the apostolic creates the primary field of NT ministry and is crucial to the recovery of missional church.”  P. 115
  • “Apostolic ministry creates the environment that gives birth to all the other ministries.  This is so b/c it hosts the mDNA of Jesus’s church.  It thus forms the reference point for the other fivefold ministries.  It ‘births’ the prophetic b/c it establishes the covenant community.  Together with the prophetic, it forms the ‘foundational ministry’ of the church (Eph. 2:20).”

Focus/Core Tasks of the apostle, according to Hirsch:

  • Extending Christianity
  • Guarding and embedding DNA of the church, both theologically and missionally
  • Establish the church in new contexts
  • Founding the other ministries
  • Development of leaders and leadership systems
  • Maintain strategic missional perspective
  • Trans-local networking.

Impact when monopolizing

  • Autocratic leadership
  • Lot’s of challenge and change, but unhealthy transitions.

With Hirsch’s work and the collaborative feedback of AAC as a backdrop, Paul has proposed this as my ministry within AAC, as an apostle:

  • Visionary of AAC – Envision the mission/incarnation to the local community and strategize how we might get to what is envisioned.
  • Networker – Meet, converse and connect AAC with other ministries, churches and anything having to do with the big picture of the church at large.
  • Fundraiser – Find supporters of AAC in both prayer and finance.  This is important in that our group is small and cannot sustain itself without this.
  • Cultivator – Identify gifting in others involved in AAC.  Inform and cultivate the role (APEST) that they may have with AAC.
  • Communicator – Writer (Newsletter, blog and promotional material) as well as facilitator of discussion (tabletalk & AAC nights with the community).  This also includes representing AAC to the Church and talks with the community of San Diego.
  • CEO
    • Casting vision for the Board
    • Keeping board in line with missional objectives
    • Fundraising for AAC
    • Connecting AAC with outside sources and resources
    • Represent AAC as the face to our missional/incarnational ministry (meet w/pastors, attend conferences, preach, go to the rec council meetings, etc.)
    • Develop mission and concise explanation of AAC for promotional and speaking purposes.

This ministry description further corrlates with my StrengthFinder assessment. See how my five strengths support the proposed role:

  • Strategic p.136
    • Discover the path to success
    • Take time to think through goals and the path that needs to be taken (schedule thinking time)
    • Use your abilities to see alternatives to help others when they are stuck, your insight will help others.
    • Partner with people who have “Ideation” high in their strengthfinder.
    • Use your strategic talents to use what is already working well in the group, instead of changing things so that others misunderstand.
    • Slow down and explain your strategy to people in the group
    • Communicating strategy is key to finding support.  Others cannot always see what you envision otherwise.
  • Ideation p. 123
    • Brainstorm new and creative ideas.
    • Expand your social network, academic opportunities and your community involvement.
    • Layout a diversity of perspectives for others in the group.
    • High level of Creative productivity, get together with those who have “Futuristic talents” high on their StrengthsFinder.
    • Keep an idea journal
    • Work to communicate your ideas effectively and use these to inspire others.
    • Partner with Intellection, Maximizer, Analytical, Discipline, or Achiever talents to harness all you ideas and turn the best ones into reality.
  • Connectedness p. 113
    • Help people see connections and purpose in everday occurrences.
    • Use your web of relationships to lead you to powerful learning experiences.
    • Schedule time for meditation and contemplation (reflect on religious beliefs, “coincidences” and interactions).
    • Keep a journal of your experiences and your sense of connection
    • Partner with someone who can help communicate these connections that most others can’t see.
    • When others are divided by differences, help them to see what is in common and unite them.
    • Help others to cope with unpredictable and unexplainable events.  Help people to find meaning in difficult and trying events. Your perspective brings comfort.
  • Adaptability p. 106
    • Be calm and reassuring in times of change and distress.
    • Help others to find enjoyment in the journey as much as the destination.  Because you do.
    • Listen to your body, pay attention when pressure is mounting, good for your health.
    • Use your spontaneity to help others see the value in seizing the moment.
  • Intellection p. 127
    • Ask great questions and help others to think and discover through this method.
    • Continue studying things that stimulate your mind.
    • Schedule quiet time to think, reflect, muse and reenergize.
    • Keep a journal and take time to write regularly.  Writing might be the best way to crystallize and integrate your thoughts.
    • Sometimes your energetic debate of a philosophical issue can be intimidating to those with lesser talents in this theme  Partner with Empathy or Positivity talents to recognize when others are beginning to feel uncomfortable.

In conclusion I am grateful for the work the group has done in clarifying my role. We are in agreement that my role is as stated, and I gladly accept this mission.

Not a Pastor

August 30, 2010
by T.C. Porter

Have a church, have a pastor. Right? Well, unless your a church that does things differently.

We actually aren’t even ordaining anyone, not in the sense of ordination as defined through Christian tradition. Ordanation was not a biblical term so much as a traditional construction. It is mostly a symptom of hierarchy, for ordination is effected by church leaders often behind closed doors and unbeknowst to the congregation. But the real point is that proper ordination is between God and the individual. It is God who ordains. It is just that in some respect God’s annointing on a person will be represented with some echo within the faith community, and so the rite of ordanation has developed in time.

That being the case, the government as one barometer in determining whether corporation is a church or not looks for an ordained leader. Beyond that there is an intuitive sense that someone should be sanctioned in some capacity. And this is not all bad.

In part to appease the government, I have been liscensed. As our church develops this may come in handy for purposes of marying or burying. And in reality we are often asked by outsiders, who is in charge? I needn’t belabor the point any further. Obviously I am very interested in AAC and just out of that interest alone I emerge as someone with impassioned authority.

We could have stopped there and merely had me as an officially liscensed dude, without explaining further. But just because we are in the business of making points (see the third prong of our mission statement , speak into the church) let us use this as an opportunity: What exactly am I liscensed to do? Seeing as how I am ordained by God, and recognized in a sense as commissioned by my peers, to what exactly am I ordained to do? What does my liscensing represent?

It might first be worth a paragraph explaining what I am not commissioned to do, for it portrays an important aspect of our ethos shift as contrasted to the prevailing religious structures. I am not a pastor, which is the religious catch-all in describing Protestant church leaders today. Clearly many of them are not pastors at all in the sense of shepherding the flock of people in the chruch in a real sense; many of them are just spreakers, teachers, evangelists or micro-celebrities. Moreover there is no strong biblical case for an “office” of pastor. In most cases the word is used to describe God or Jesus, or it is used simply to describe the many real people in the landscape who actually were shepherds of sheep. Indeed the term is nothing more than a metaphor, a meaningful one at that for the original biblical audience. Hence during the only three times when the term pastor (or shepherd) is used to describe church leaders, in each case it is as a metaphor: Elders, watch over the church as a shepherd watches over sheep (Acts 20:28; 1 Peter 5:1-4). Teachers, teach like a shepherd (Eph. 4:11; the case here being made that pastor modifies or describes teacher).

This is not to eliminate shepherds from our midst. The metaphor speaks of the truth that we need overseers and people who help us stay on the path of Jesus, as a shepherd in ancient Israel kept his sheep in the right place. But at least in having this discussion we are thinking more deeply and in the process realizing other roles necessary for a balanced faith community. And by refraining from the urge to call a leader a pastor, the rest of us fill in the gaps by loving and tending to one another as we should. Shepherding is done by more than just one guy.

In reality if we have shepherds at all they are those people exceptionally gifted and interested in loving others. They are the ones who remember your birthday, call you because they noticed you looked blue, remember your prayer needs, know the names of your family members, etc. As I have reflected on my church experience over the years two things are noteworthy: 1) The men often known as pastors do not always exhibit the traits of a loving and concerned overseer. 2) There are many others in the congregation who do a better job of caring and evoking the Jesus who is described as the good shepherd.

So in our little faith community on Adams I can think of a few shepherds. They happen to be women. I know they are praying for me, and I know they are the first to realize when I am sick or off the path. God is ordaining them to live as shepherds to the flock. As for me … not a pastor.

More Clearly

August 27, 2010
by T.C. Porter

Yesterday I spoke about being in the fog. But then I had another perspective. There is some clarity to our faith community and perhaps the risk is not enjoying it to the full because of expectations that make the present seem cloudy. More realistic and forgiving glasses reveal that things are as they should be.

There I go again. Alan Hirsch wrote that the downfall of an apostle is “lots of wounded people in the organization due to task and future orientation of the apostle.” If I am always dreaming and striving for some theoretical Christian utopia the present will always be hell. So while yesterday I voiced some of my discomfort, this morning I would like to celebrate the certain groove that we are in together as a faith community.

The rhythm is quite simple and manageable. In a world that seems at times more chaotic by the second we have a weekly Sunday morning respite, coming together to experience a shared mission and extended family. One week we gather in a coffee shop and chat. The next week we go out and serve the neighborhood. The twosome repeats. For two years this has been a presence in Normal Heights. Coffee shop chats. Service in the community.

Its simplicity is genius. Repetition has a deepening effect. There is something to ground our lives into. All else swirls around it but I can rest assured that come Sunday I see familiar faces who have shared values and a desire to grow closer together and to God.

The apostle in me had been setting sights much higher. We would live together. We would be extreme. We would sleep along streets of prostitution and carry big, heavy crosses up and down the alley. My favorite authors are often single (Shane Claiborne … Jesus, Paul) or without children (Hirsch … Jesus, Paul) so what was I doing comparing myself to them anyway? And then I remembered again something very important: The kingdom of God is like a mustard seed. In a world of steroids and stadium events, there is beauty to a small group of people diligently following two meek and simple routines. Or as Eugene Peterson says, there is more to the church than meets the eye.

I cannot overlook all the things going on in the lives of the people away from the “gathering.” While we do not have a recurring midweek feast, a prostitution ministry, a homeless ministry or even a Bible study at this time, we shall celebrate that our individuals have space and freedom to impact the kingdom without being locked into various ecclesiastic events that keep them from doing good elsewhere. If a church does its job in equipping one another then the true fruit of its labour happens in untold routines in normal places as more and more people are touched by God through His people (us).

We could have emerged at this time as  a church that looks like what oozes out of the pages of The Forgotten Ways or Ordinary Radicals. We might live in a compound and practice communitas by sharing one car. But that is not what is. Our reality is more normal. And there is a virtue to normal. With no steep attendance or giving requirements, asking little to nothing of one another, that leaves room for grace. Giving by definition can not be forced. Meanwhile the reality is that most everyday two or more of our households are gathered somewhere doing something, often assisting one another in life’s routine trials and chores. There’s more to church than meets the eye.

Our faith community is a simple appendage growing out of the lives of our people. And the prayer is that what goes on in those lives during the majority of those hours that we are not officially together is much the same as Sunday. May our simple, normal little practices and conversations be the stuff of mustard seeds, though small growing into the largest of trees, together a jungle.

What is Clear

August 26, 2010
by T.C. Porter

Today I want to begin reflecting and casting forward regarding AAC. On Sunday we’re having a picnic in the park – recognizing me as a licensed representative and using my liscensing as a time to pause and reflect and look ahead. (The only thing licensing means is I can marry and bury, and we are a legitimate non-profit.) The original thinking way back last year when we were becoming a corporation was that we would use the licensing as a “rite of passage” (recall Ch. 4 of Alan Hirsch’s The Forgotten Ways Handbook). It would make sense to give some definition to who we are and what in turn I am.

But the hard lesson I keep learning – as if the divine Geek Squad must regularly visit to reboot the computer of me – is that definition by definition defies us. One label upon AAC is that it is organic, and a telling thing about the (anti)religious movement within the church is that with the term organic there is a connotation of fluidity that makes it hard to hold. It’s like so much of Jesus’ life – he skirted definition. He was a paradox. He spoke in parables. What did he say? Who really knew? He would heal people and then tell them to be quiet about it. He would be asked, “What is the greatest commandment?” and then give you two. His idea of systematic theology was being nailed to a cross and bleeding to death on a desert hill amidst crying women and wackos.

AAC is one of the barometers of the times, an age when old church buildings look like museums of the wreckage. It’s like we’re part of a religious Planet of the Apes. And it is easy to see that the old ways are not the new ways. But that itself is the first and only simple answer. This is like pulling a thread from an old shirt to find that you just keep pulling and pulling. And then you are left with nothing. And now what?

Well we actually do have a pretty clear vision statement. We exist to be a ministry of presence, build a faith community, and speak into the church. Amidst the ever-shifting ground these three initiatives rolled into one have simplified things quite a bit. And yet each of the three are wonderfully complex initiatives, interdependent and yet separate to one another. And I think the primary complexity has been that in discarding the old church owner’s manual the most important, urgent, notable and problematic  change has been that we have shifted to a leadership style that is less hierarchical and more collaborative. This is simultaneously the biggest draw and our biggest obstacle. And it is most challenging in the area of building a faith community.

It is easy enough to come up with service ideas and band together to be a ministry of presence. And the third prong, speaking into the church, is likewise more autonomous where each individual can reflect on our experiences to other Christians and churches within earshot. But that middle piece, that it where we attempt to truly become a family – for church is ekklesia and otherwise known as the family or household of God - and,  well, everyone knows the complexity of family.

In some ways it was easier to get along in families when there were more clearly sanctioned roles and bold lines in the pavement of the house. Post-moderns bemoan past patriarchs but in the wreckage we have easily (at least one of) the most fragmented familial society the world has known. We have landed in Normal Heights precisely because we wanted to be a ministry of presence amidst broken homes and isolation. We serve primarily children who have no father. Face it: Stuff is messed up.

Now of course it is unwise to think too fondly of an age when women and slaves were oppressed, and I have many wounds from an authoritarian father. And so we push onward. But while the authoritarian priest has been largely dismissed in the lives of people, as a visionary and religious leader myself I am still wrestling with the riddle of what we do next. For I have only recently come to realize the bulky obstacle before us if we are to truly get traction in our nation and neighborhood and have a church culture that truly befits a wonderful God.

We are individualists. It is difficult for us to realize the stellar biblical metaphor of the church as body woven together like flesh and muscles and knit together with the smallest and mightiest ligaments. It is difficult to see where the center holds. I see in the broad landscape bickering Christians ripped apart by untold ideological differences. But here is the real and huge dilemma that is so pervasive and widespread, so ingrained in each of us, that I do not think we can really come to grasp or handle without serious divine intervention.

We are selfish.

What cripples the church more than anything is the virtue and ethic of preference. We have automobiles and mobile devices and everything invented between to stimulate our personal lordship. Our lives are parades of personal preference. I am not saying this is all bad. I could certainly explain at great detail why I think it is crippling to our lives as followers of Jesus within the family of God. Suffice it to say that it is simply a riddle: How will a band of individualists mobilize for the good? And as the one who dreamed up something like AAC, I am holding my chin, knees crossed as I sit and ponder.

I am not rebelling from our collaborativeness. Jesus moved mountains not by coersion. He simply invited people to follow. He welded power not like earthly rulers. His power was in weakness. Yet he also died, again, on a barren hill. The revolution had mixed early results. It might be enough to say, we should look like that. But maybe not. I am simply uneasy in wondering if in fact we are doing the right thing or lost in an anarchy of individualism. And I wait as conversation after conversation one person after the next voices her or his vision for AAC, and we continue to move along at the pace of a snail that continues to change its course.

So our rite of passage this Sunday is not so cut and dry. We can not say, simply, “We are this,” or “We are that.” We will just sort of have to see what happens as each of us work together to continue to mold this thing together. My earnest prayer is that we individuals are getting out of the way. I am not sure exactly what I will write tomorrow but in tune with this paragraph I can say, importantly, that I have at times been a huge obstacle for AAC. I come with my own pride and baggage. I am often worshiping not God but T.C. I am often endeavoring to build not a faith community but whatever fits my own preferences and conveniences. This has not been all bad, for in the struggle of self-denial I have learned how to more fluidly cast away the self and follow the Spirit into collaboration that fits the metaphor of Ephesians 4:16: “From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work.”

Maybe it’s not so chaotic. Maybe its as simple as this. Unite “in faith in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ. Then we will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and craftiness of people in their deceitful scheming. Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will in all things grow up into him who is the head, that is, Christ” (Eph. 4:13-15).

Practice Prayer

August 24, 2010

Chapter Sum and Reflection

Even as Paul is not praying, his language is prayerful. That is one of the secrets of Ephesians and Paul. If we can tap into a prayerful language then we might be closer to experiencing ceaseless prayer. And prayer undergirds the church. There is no Christ here without the church, no church without Christ; prayer brings it all together and is both fully human and fully divine.

Fully Human and Divine

Peterson makes a valuable point that the church’s failures often happen when it diminishes either its divinity or its humanity. With diminished divinity we are prone to fill the void ourselves with prayerless activities. This is the danger with AAC when our service projects are too much of us and not enough of God. Conversely, with diminished humanity the church speaks of souls to save and conspiciously over-uses “Christ” to the loss of Jesus. AAC seems to be an intuitive response to this common otherworldly religion that is not always in tune with the needs of our times or the fact that salvation is here and now as well as later.

The experience of merging the human and the divine is evidenced not in perfection, but in maturity. What seems like a slight nuance is all the difference. Perfection is unobtainable in this life, but growing in maturity should be an expectation of individuals and communities.

But again, do not expect perfection.  The Ephesus church, famous as it is as one of the major firsts, is far from perfect as exhibited in John’s Revelation (2:4) as well as Paul’s letter to the Ephesians (6:11-12). As critical thinkers and reformers we should keep this in mind and grace all churches with love and forgiveness in spite of their failures, which we exhibit too.

In a casual culture, and particularly in a missional movement such as ours, far away from cathedrals and high church rituals, Peterson reminds us that Paul exhibited the physical act of bowing “my knees before the father” (Eph. 3:14). This act of reverence is one of “voluntary defenselessness” in wich “I become less so that I can become aware of more” (p. 154).

This posture is not in vogue in a world in which the media, our parents, our employers, our teachers, and, perhaps most demanding of all, our egos are telling us to make the most of ourselves. On his knees before the Father, Paul prays.” Peterson, p. 154

Peterson wonders why, although prayer is historically, anthropologically ubiquitous, there is nevertheless so little fluency. He proposes that we have an issue that transcends prayer: We have a language issue. Our words are bankrupt, namely because they are impersonal, machine-like and task oriented. “The practice of prayer, if it is going to amount to anything more than wish lists and complaints, requires a recovery of personal, relational, revelational language in both our listening and our speaking” (p. 156).

He adds that “while prayer is always personal, it is never individual.” We are never alone in prayer, for even when we pray in solitude the fact is others are praying too. We pray for others. Others pray for us. Hence the importance of personal language. Speak as if we are pouring out our hearts, our emotions and out thoughts to the whole world and its creator – for we are.

This is modeled brilliantly by Paul throughout his writings, particularly the prayers, particularly in Ephesians 3:14-21. I have bookmarked it in my phone and endeavor to memorize it and to have it with me, to let Paul’s exuberant and explosive language penetrate my vocabulary. And I shall remember two things:

In prayer I am participating big time in the lives of others. Take this literally and seriously: Praying for sick family members, stuggling folks and crises of many kinds – the power to heal these issues and resolve problems, what an endeavor. Do not pray weakly. This is big stuff. Which leads to …

Focus not on the problems at hand nor the “penury of the human condition”, but on the “plenitude of God” (p. 158). Pray hopefully and expectantly. Dive into the prayer deeps and into the “inner being” (Eph. 3:16), the “inner man” who is Jesus himself. Pray like Jesus. Pray with all the power of the Spirit (3:16).

Peterson closes with reminders similar to the ones shared earlier regarding diminished divinity and humanity. There he encouraged us to live fully human and fully divine. Now, this closing advice is similar. He suggests that two fallacies criple the church. One is that church is what we do. Under this fallacy we become hyper-active little Gods who measure church pragmatically, by our works or good religion. This manifests with AAC when we measure too much the garbage we pick up or boast about how are worship is wonderfully and uniquely practical. I think this is parallel to the earlier warning about diminished divinity within church.

The second misconception about church is the opposite: that it is a mystical and invisible elite that is devoid of physical place in this world. Pure mysticism flies in the face of the incarnation of Jesus, who took up flesh. These are the churches who sing readily but do not pick up a shovel to dig the world from under it’s problems. This is the diminished humanity of church, something AAC has made great strides against. May we embody the fully divine and fully human aspects of ekklesia.

7 a.m. Advocate

August 18, 2010
by T.C. Porter

Practice Church

August 12, 2010

Chapter Sum and Reflection

This is perhaps the most admonishing chapter of the book for organic church proponents such as us, specifically those with a strong critique on the church. Peterson states that you can not have Jesus without the church, an contrast for those who fill out their religious preference, “Love Jesus, not the church.” The church is the body of Christ, it is always present, and it has a long pre-history (Israel).

… ‘church’ in our culture is wrongly considered to be something more or less tacked on to ‘Christian.’ Church is not an ‘add-on,’ a program or cheerleader, to help us to be faithful and better Christians. We think wrongly if we consider church in terms of what it does for us, or (and this is perhaps even worse) in terms of what we can do for it. As long as we think of church in those terms, we will evaluate it in terms of how it meets our self-identified needs, or in terms of how it needs us and how we can help out.” Peterson, p. 131

Peterson continues that the Christian life is not about goals, shortcuts and formula committees. Life is meandering (p. 133). Remember, Paul is writing from a prison! Church is a messy place where imperfect people attain Christ-likness. If you looked at church and saw a bunch of perfect people doing perfect things, there would be no room for their growing.

Church cannot be objectively described or defined from the outside. Church can only be entered. It is a creation of Christ for growing up in Christ. … Wisdom is knowledge in action, embodied in the life of the church. Wisdom is the practice of resurrection. … Church is the workshop for turning knowledge into wisdom, becoming what we know.” Peterson, p. 137

Inscape: Description and Reflection

Peterson, via 19th-century Jesuit priest and poet Gerard Manley Hopkins, contributes a valuable word picture to the conversation: inscape, which analogizes and contrasts with landscape. It is like landscape but it touches on what you do not see. “Inscape is the intuitive sense that what we see is a living, organic form that strikes through the senses and into the mind with a feeling of novelty and discovery” (p. 138). Peterson’s idea is that when we see church, we are often disappointed, in part because there are many things going on that we do not see. There are things going on right beneath our noses that are being dismissed for invisibility.

I’m thinking of the compost pile in my backyard. I throw a bunch of dead scraps from the kitchen in there and mix with dirt. It’s like the City of San Diego’s mamouth piles south of the air field in North Claremont area, which looks like someting out of a Mad Max movie. There’s miles of nothing excpet four-story tall piles of what looks and smells like poop and tractor trucks that could run over semis without flinching, scooping up the stuff and dropping it into four-ton pickups that look like toy cars in this environment. There seems to be nothing alive in all the brown and grey. And yet if we all disappeared and came back in five years there would be lush gardens; in ten years, mini forrests of oaks and eucalyptus. The compost pile is hot with energy – stick your hands in it and feel the heat – and teeming with seeds waiting to sprout. There is more than meets the eye.

It is the same with church. Most of them, for most of us, look bizare, impertenant, weird or otherwise meaningless. But think of all the lives, the people touched by the people touched by the church. Think of all the seeds amidst the poop.

Inscape means that there is a lot more to church than we can see, hear, or read. … It is true that a superficial survey of church brings up a lot of disconnected and random things, ideas, and people. But dismissing all that offends our spiritual sensibilities by brushing it aside, and creating our own sanitized and idealized church rejects the church God gave us.” Peterson, p. 141

I am not per se agreeing with Peterson carte blanch, yet I feel he is speaking directly to us postmodern reformers when he asks (p. 142), “This is real church. Are we going to receive what God gives us? Or make up our own?”

Closing remarks

Peterson continues, “as long as we employ secular values and insist on having church as we think it ought to be, formulating this ‘ought’ from what we see work in our culture quite apart from God, we will never recognize the church that is right before us” (p. 146). Peterson seems to be saying that church as it is is a tonic or counter-culture contrasted with the world and its “celebrities, consumerism and violence”, accomplices in keeping us “in a perpetually arrested state of adolescence. Yet all the while the church is quietly and without false advertising immersing us in the conditions of becoming mature to the measure of the full stature of Christ.”

Organic Institution

August 11, 2010

The question is not whether people believe in hierarchy, but how much. The dude who calls a few friends and invites them over for beers and a talk about God, this man in the postmodern court will be found guilty of authoritarianism. The way Gen X talks about it you would think such gathering can only spontaneously combust or be the misguided ambition of institution. By definition of institution, which is an external organization that bears down from the outside, the woman who drives downtown and feeds the homeless is failing to engage in the organic spirit. Many people have acquired, through some evolutionary process I recon, antennae that sniff out the least bit of institution and smash the host lest become assimilated into the agendas of the would-be authoritarian perpetrator.

This author of this diagram says "the likely reality is that a combination of structured hierarchy mixed with 'flat' collaborative teams exists." Click image for link.

But this is h ugely ironic, because the very people who are repelled from religious institution are embedded in institution on every angle. Many of them are teachers, government officials, attorneys. They work for multinational corporations, or their organic startup is about to be gobbled up by a multinational who will make them rich. Their web browser is Google, the new IBM. They would be lost without Facebook, the new AOL, which was the new NBC, which is owned by Disney, which gobbled up Winnie the Pooh. It is not a stretch to say that institution is the stuff that holds things together. One day all these young anarchists will be sitting in the same multi-billion dollar hospital being saved from heart failure by the mighty institution of organized medicine.

Surely they are not saying to banish institution. What they are saying is that they want it when they want it. And they don’t want it so much with religion, for several reasons, starting with the fact that institutional religion has been the stuff that rapes boys, begets televangelists, builds fifty million dollar cathedrals in the suburbs to replace the old abandoned church building in the ghetto; imposes dogma developed in the day of Beowulf, Robin Hood, Huck Finn and Andy Griffith; hates gays, ignores lepers and otherwise does not seem to be living out the stuff it is preaching. If the institution would be the institution in the way of a servant, would be a glue that holds things together in the same way your immigrant housekeeper keeps the toilet spotless, enables collaboration in the same way Facebook has earned the allegiance of millions, connects voices with all the coverage of Verizon … now there would be little debate on organic versus institutional. For both of these words are pictures which are more aptly recognized as the similes: The church is like an institution. The church is like an organic movement. The church is not a fungus. The church is not a machine. It might be like a fungus or machine. But the church is the church. And even that is a word picture.

The organic church people, including theoretically me, are defining organic as something that only leads from the inside. An organic church is self regulated. It is not born down upon from the outside. But even this is not agreeable to many of the individuals. The collective of the local church is an institution in that it is the external force that bears down upon the individuals. It is external to the individuals. It is an institution. And people are rejecting it, often simply out of stubborn independence and lack of commitment and humble, submissive spirit. And so my plea here is for the individuals to recognize their own individualism. We cannot be free agents. Sporting stars can. That is the game they play. But then again their leagues are multinational corporate institutions. We the church are called into what Paul calls not an institution but a body. And the parts of a body are not independent of one another. To a baby toe the foot is a much needed institution. To the nipple so is the breast. And the inner most parts are dependent upon the skin and everything between, in all all its complexity.

Practice Teamwork

August 4, 2010
by T.C. Porter

Yesterday I was at the recreation playing football with two boys. Well one was like a man, a huge 16 year old who should play first base or tight end. And then an elementary student half his size (no exaggeration). They decided to play one-on-one with me as all-time quarterback. It was the world’s most high scoring game. Touchdowns on every other play.

The whole thing – in addition to just my joy of playing with two young men who actually have good attitudes, friendly dispositions and generous competitive spirit – it was an exercise in collaborative timing. It was more about me practicing my own throws. With each receiver I had different callings altogether. With the teen as receiver it was about throwing the ball fast and high, above the shorter defender. When teams shifted it was all about lobbing it over the big guy and letting his quicker junior run under it.

The collaborative interworkings were magnified as these graceful young men forgave my miss throws, congratulated one another on their good plays and otherwise ignored the goof ups. Don’t get me wrong, when the sweaty teen took off his shirt there was hazing for sure.

It’s a season in AAC where we are verbalizing some of our strategies, giving feedback, trying to give shape to our teamwork. It is not unlike the football teams all around the country, amateur, collegiate and pro. Quarterbacks throwing to receivers. The things you don’t see during the games are the hundreds upon hundreds of routes and passes and filmwork, coaching, socializing as teammates get into sync with one another. It takes a lot of work, forgiveness, grace. And it takes thick skin.

Things go wrong. Balls are dropped. Passes sail over the target and into the hands of the enemy. We are all too aware of the parallels in our lives and there is something invisible that is equally challenging: People are not prone to dealing with such miss-throws gracefully. Some people overstate the failures of others. Some people are chronically uncomfortable with the lease failure of their own. Some people are paralyzed to the feedback of others. Our society is labeled as a parade of individualists and it follows that we are not always good teammates.

Two-plus years into this thing I still don’t have a title. We don’t know what to call me. But we might say I am a player coach, or a quarterback, and as a player in a highly visible position of leadership, maybe what I am saying is, good job team. Let’s keep practicing. Let’s allow for mistakes, teaching one another, finding the balance of working on our weak areas and letting stuff go. Let’s have thick skin when others recognize our failures, when some people overstate our weaknesses. Let’s play like pros. And any pro will tell you that the game is one during practice.

On three, “Team!” One, two, three  …

Flat Board

August 2, 2010
  • This is what I wrote in the afternoon:

A memo on the board of directors and our leadership style
Excerpted from a broader
draft doc on the board of directors

The board is an eclectic mix in every respect – AAC insiders and outsiders; administrative and visionary; detail oriented individuals and big-picture. Members do what they are good at and let others handle the rest. The board collaborates and is fluid: Think of it like a stream rather than a pond; a place to make connections; to pull the AAC vision out and bring resources in.

I thought this loosely fit the topic at hand

Churches (as well as secular institutions) by and large, traditionally, have been hierarchical. They are seen as led by a ‘pastor’ or other figurehead. But we are part of an emerging expression of ‘flat leadership’ and collaboration. If I am seen as a default leader it is only because my gifting and role is more public and outward, as an ambassador and visionary.

But the essence of AAC is mutuality and cooperation, as a body works together, and I am one of equals whenever our faith community gathers. And it works the same when the board gathers. As “executive director,” I am one of equals. That is why the executive director (aka “CEO”) position has been separated from “chair” of the board – to balance and spread the leadership horizontally. Whereas many non-profit and other corporations have one Chairman (president)/CEO (executive director), we have two.* And those individuals (chair and CEO) are designed to bare no more authority or power than others; the individuals serving those roles are called to serve with humility and a servant heart, seeking to represent and advocate the needs of the entire body, which operates under the headship of one – Jesus Christ.

* Larger for-profit corporations are also trending toward separate positions for chair and CEO. See this article.

  • Then “the rubber hits the road” at an actual board meeting in the evening, after which I wrote:

Words are concepts and we sometimes reach to describe something that is not yet formulated. A term “flat leadership” is coined (for instance, used in this very good article recently by missional church leader David Fitch). But what does it really mean? Does it symbolize some things that we do not mean to be saying? And are we a bit misguided in the first place?

The conversation at our board meeting tonight revealed a few things about our actual leadership and what we are striving for, the way we describe it, and the leadership we should have under the providence of God:

  1. Whatever we call today’s leadership, it is not the leadership of decades before. There is a shifting going on, and previous leaders may not feel comfortable with what we are doing. Even some younger people will not feel comfortable with the emerging leadership styles.
  2. The way we explain things may overemphasize our shift, exaggerate the ways we are changing, overly criticize the way things used to be done or otherwise confuse the situation. In other words we need to be patient with ourselves and our listeners and continue to polish our presentation, our “draft document” … for instance, evaluating if “flat leadership” is even the best way to present this concept.
  3. Further, perhaps what we are trying to say is flawed. Just because we have a hunch does not mean we are right. We just might need correcting, or at least be open and teachable. Because if we are implying that no one in the group has more spiritual authority than the next; or that certain people aren’t “set apart” for spiritual leadership; or that we do not need at times to submit to “elders”; then we are indeed drifting towards anarchy, or at least in danger of writing our own little biblical script detached from history and the way things have been done for the better part of the church’s life. Succinctly, if we think that Jesus is the only pastor we need … hmm, let’s at least pause for further reflection.

Each of these three things were in play at the board meeting tonight. Two of the six board members were balking at the way the leadership style was presented. This led to healthy discussion that to a degree corrected the excess and helped polish the presentation.

I think we (AAC; or at least I) can affirm each of the three points above by saying something like this:

  1. We are trail-blazers on the leading edge of cultural and church innovation. As one board member (Lisa) said after hearing the much-warranted critique (from Bill) of the purely “flat” model, there is no guide book to what we are doing. We are pioneers in uncharted wilderness. And precisely because of our collaborative elements, we are protected from going too far astray. We are on the right track. Indeed what we are doing is a bit like the Methodists, who essentially “flattened” the prevailing priestly hierarchy even more than their protestant brethren. The Wesleyans elevated the laity; even to this day the churches have “lay leaders” and broad representation of non-clergy within the church. In the same way, two centuries later, we are prayerfully led by the Spirit to undergo a similar “flattening” by further empowering Christians to do the work of service and love.
  2. However, “flat leadership” is a dangerous way to describe what we are really getting at. Because I do think that people within AAC mean to have spiritual guidance, and leadership. There are authoritative voices within the church. We mean to say however that we are moving away from authoritarian voices – that is the difference. My sense is that most in the group would point to me if someone walked into the room with a gun asking for the leader. At the same time however we seem to be indicative of a movement that is attempting to claim something that has been lost in translation, a power to the people, a license for all to sit like Mary at Jesus’ feet, to dine with Jesus directly, to minister the word and sacraments. If it sounds at times like a revolution well it is, a busting at the seems rebellion that by God’s grace will give this world and nation the awakening it needs. Early on for AAC it was easy enough to frame this with words like rebellion, but as we mature and real flesh grows on our bones we begin using our words more carefully. So I begin wanting to place “draft document” upon every square inch of our website. We are a work in progress. Pardon our words. Thank you for helping us use them carefully. I don’t think “flat” is the best way to describe our leadership and governance. We’ll come up with something more precise. For now we pray that it is clear enough to those who matter what we are trying to say. I, as one who endeavors to be a servant leader who does not Lord my authority or become a fake talking head blogging form a well-protected cocoon, mean to say flat as in “I have no greater worth than anyone else in the eyes of God. Please don’t seat me at the best seat in the banquet, thank you. But do however know that I take my calling seriously, I get with God constantly and the word ‘covenant’ is before me as I realize that I for one am set apart for a serious sacrifice and agape love when it comes to this thing called AAC, It just happens that I’m thinking that several others will be falling in line behind me, so that if AAC isn’t exactly a ‘priesthood of all believers’ it is indeed a band of brothers and sisters who take seriously the concept ‘follow Jesus’ and everything it means to be following the one true priest who laid down his life for others.”
  3. At the same time, by all means we need elders, we need experienced voices, we need voices of dissent. We (specifically AAC – most specifically me) demand healthy dissension. Indeed that is at the essence of this idea behind where we are headed that is flawed; we run the risk of going too far; so we do not mind when people say, “Whoa, wait a minute, I don’t like the way this sounds.” A loving father corrects his children. An elder should correct the younger ones. We can not be a group of younger Christians who think we know everything and are out to fix the broken mess we inherited. Let’s have some humility, let’s surround ourselves with people who have some experience and perspective, let’s be part of the body of Christ.

One of the board members (Jen), who is actually leaving the board anyway, was feeling a pit in her stomach after the meeting. She was not alone. There was some discomfort in the process. I felt it too. But increasingly I feel a sense of buoyancy in this difficult process of being a pioneer. Our success has to be seen through a Godly lens, and God is okay with disagreements, way more so than most of us mere mortals. We are not simply stepping into the establishment. We are braving rough waters at a time when the world and the church truly need brave sailors. My prayer is that whoever you are, be encouraged, know the great depth of love of God, like an ocean, and know that God created you and destined you for purpose and abundance that comes from living faithfully, enduring hardships, loving steadfastly, being a friend. All of this is strengthening you for the age to come, when Christ will appear in glory, and you also.

Blog Break

July 23, 2010
by T.C. Porter

I will return during the first week of August.

I thank my God every time I remember you. … God can testify how I long for all of you with the affection of Christ Jesus.” Philippians 1:3,8

Audio: Receive

July 18, 2010
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by T.C. Porter
  • Today’s Table Talk, a conversation on receiving grace: with a humble disposition, a childlike dependence, acquired passivity, or actively letting go.

If the player doesn’t load, click here.

In the Pauline corpus ἡ χάρις τοῦ θεοῦ is often simply the apostle’s shorthand for all the benefits of the gospel that are secured by Christ and mediated by the Spirit. … those blessings are in particular the arrival of the new order with its new attitudes and new life, the receipt of reconciliation with God through the forgiveness of sins, and the acquisition of a right standing before God.” Murray J. Harris
Harris, The Second Epistle to the Corinthians : A commentary on the Greek text, Grand Rapids, Mich.; Milton Keynes, UK: W.B. Eerdmans Pub. Co.; Paternoster Press; 2005), 457-8.

Practice Peace

July 14, 2010

Chapter Sum

Church is the place where things are worked out, where individualists join the web of community and allow themselves to grow up in the measure of the full stature of Christ. The growing happens as people are pulled into the action of God. Most the action is invisible. Hence remove the focus on what ought to be in the church and rest in knowing that God has been working things out. Deal with God and people and enter God’s active working in the church, by focusing on what church is rather than what it does. It is a place where people are being transformed and shaped, generation by generation, and brought into the peace of Christ. Messy as this may appear, there is order and God’s glory.

The Brambles of Individualism

Paul “guides us through the thorny brambles of individualism,” which stunts growth and inhibits maturity. Growth is seen as an “isolated self-project” and we “serve God without dealing with God.”

  • “Individualism is self-ism with swagger.”
  • “This is the person who is sure that he or she can love neighbors without knowing their names.”
  • America is the “individualism capital of the world.” (p. 112)
  • “For as long as individualism has free rein in our lives, we will not be capable of embracing church. Individualism severely handicaps us in growing up to the measure of the full stature of Christ. If unchecked it can be fatal, fating us to lifelong immaturity.”

Individualism leads people to take grace or good works by itself, specializing in God or the spiritual life (grace), people or the practical life (good works). (p. 113)

“A serious house on serious earth”

We come to the final condition in becoming mature (attentive and responsive in Christ): the church (Eph. 1:22-23).

There is more to the church than meets the eye. We see ordinary people in an ordinary place. (114)

Spirituality has become the thing. People want it; they don’t want church, which was going the way of bicycles in an automobile era (p. 115). But the church is the ordinary place where ordinary people hunger for something more serious, the unseen. Such hunger, and such ordinary people, will never go obsolete. And you cannot split the two, the spiritual and the ordinary.

Peterson: “church is primarily the activity of God in Christ through the spirit.” (117) It is the activity of God: see in Eph. 2:14-17 where God is the active agent of the verbs: Jesus is our peace (v. 14); he made us one (v. 14); divided the wall (v. 14); etc. And we are the passive recipients of something done to us: we are brought near (v. 13); given access (v. 18); built upon the foundation (v. 20); etc.

When we are pulled into the action, it is God who pulls us in. We acquire our identity not by what we do but by what is done to us. This is what transforms the church we see into the church we don’t see, ‘a serious house on serious earth,’ a place where someone is surprised by ‘a hunger in himself to be more serious.’” Peterson, 117-8

The Ontological Church

Church as a place where passive participants are pulled into the action of God: this is “hard to come by – maybe especially in America.”

“Americans talk and write endlessly about what the church needs to become, what the church must do to be effective. The perceived failures of the church are analyzed and reforming strategies prescribed. The church is understood almost exclusively in terms of function — what we can see. If we can’t see it, it doesn’t exist. Everything is viewed through the lens of pragmatism. Church is an instrument that we have been given to bring about whatever Christ commanded us to do. Church is a staging ground for getting people motivated to continue Christ’s work.

“This way of thinking – church as a human activity to be measured by human expectations – is pursued unthinkingly. The huge reality of god already at work in all the operations of the Trinity is benched on the sideline while we call timeout, huddle together with our heads bowed down, and figure out a strategy by which we can compensate for God’s regrettable retreat into invisibility. This is dead wrong, and it is responsible for no end of shallowness and experimentation trying to achieve success and relevance and effectiveness that people can see. Statistics provide the basic vocabulary for keeping score. Programs provide the game plan. …

“We have to submit ourselves to the revelation and receive church as the gift of Christ as he embodies himself in the world.” Peterson, 118

Peterson is suggesting an ontological understanding of church, rather than a functional understanding: what church is, not what it does. Church is not a place where we “cobble” together doing something for God; it is a place where He is working in us (p. 119).

“We do not create the church. It is.” (p. 121)

Church emerges on the scene as did creation, “without form and void.” God speaks over the formless world. Hence most of what the church is, is invisible. Things are going on. So we error in focusing on what ought to be. (p. 121)

Peterson shares the story of watching lacrosse for the first time and finding it violent and chaotic. But he learned that it was orderly, intricate and graceful. Church is like this. But without recognizing the underlying order, people overreact in three ways: attempting to fix the perceived chaos, watching without participation, or picking a new game altogether while still failing to deal personally with God and people.

“None of these three responses to the perceived messiness and bewildering chaos of church is without value. .. But all of them, by reducing church to matters of function and personal preference, miss church in its richness, its intricacy, the complex aliveness that is inherent in everything that is going on.

“Paul wants us to first understand and then participate in church as it is, as the living Christ. He wants us to understand church first of all and primarily in terms of ontology, its being, not its function. (p. 124)…

“If we don’t grasp church as Christ’s body, we will always be dissatisfied, impatient, angry, dismayed, or disgusted with what we see. We will never see the elegance and intricacy … what is going on right before our eyes in our congregation.” Peterson, 124-5

“(Jesus) is our peace”

Throughout Eph. 2:13-17 Jesus is described as our peace. But look at the church and there doesn’t seem to be much peace. If the church is his body, what gives? Why the dissonance between the Christ of peace and his body the church, which seems more a war zone? (p. 124)

Three things: 1) Jesus is a person. Peace gets worked out personally. It is not abstract, a strategy or a program. It requires participation. 2) Jesus respects people. He doesn’t force himself on people or impose peace. Rather than coerce he respects peoples’ dignity. With all these people being brought into peace, in time, it takes a while. 3) Peace comes “by an act of sacrifice.” Sacrifice makes peace and it makes the church. In Paul’s terms this is “by the blood of Christ (Eph. 2:13) and “through the cross” (2:16).

Multiply these things together and you can see how it gets messy and takes time. Church will never be a depersonalized vacuum of ideas. (125)

The process of peace takes time – it is “continuous, complex and strenuous” – and the church need not apologize for its unrest. With all its infants and toddlers and children and teens and adults all being brought into peace there is obviously “a lot of maturing to do.”

“About the time we are becoming mature (if we ever do), we find that we have brought another generation into the world that has to go through the whole process again. Humankind does not mature all at once. And so peace is constantly in the making, and also constantly at risk. Church is where Jesus is proclaimed as ‘our peace.’” Peterson, 126

Yes it’s difficult. We’re all trying to embrace others in the process of peace as Jesus embraced them: as people, with respect, and sacrificially. And the stakes are high and the performance low: we talk so much of peace at church, and yet we are learning and failing – “whether form inside or outside, mostly what (people) see is skinned knees and sprained ankles, awkward, bungled attempts at keeping the peace. …”

“But neither are we intimidated by our critics, critics who know nothing of the ontological church, when they are scandalized by our failures.” Peterson, 127

The Hospitable Church

A metaphor takes something we can see and brings us into participation with something we cannot. So it is with church: a local place pointing to transcendent realities (ascension, forgiveness, soul, river of life).

Paul’s three metaphors of church conjure up place: household of God, holy temple in the Lord, dwelling place for God. People are the building materials for the church.

When we consider church, we must not be more spiritual than God. Church is a place and a building, church is people and relationships, church is Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. And all of this at the same time: one, holy, catholic, apostolic.” Peterson, 128

Basic Disciple

July 13, 2010
by T.C. Porter

Life is of seasons and cycles. It is summer, just as it was a year ago. And it will come around again. In between there is dying and rebirth. Human lives go round the same. A little boy follows a man’s footsteps and grows into those shoes. Girls become women and do the things they practiced as childen while mimicing their elders.

Jesus was God incarnate, He was Word, message, teacher, Lord. He was many things. And we cannot ignore that he was a carpenter and the disciples were his apprentices. The story is something of a pattern for our lives. As we read about the 12 following him as children to a father, as young men to a master, we place ourselves in the narrative and see that we are doing just the same as them: Following Jesus. Falling down, getting back up. Doing good, failing. Life with Jesus is a process of maturing and becoming, like an apprentice, ready to fill the master’s shoes.

Now, this is a different kind of master. A father dies and gives way to a new generation. A carpenter works his life and then perishes. New people come in behind him. Jesus never really dies. He is long gone and yet alive. There have been dozens of generations since his crucifixion and yet each person is newly sitting at Jesus’ feet, called into his inner circle, beckoned, “follow me.” There is only one master. We are all apprentices to the eternal God.

And yet there is still that notion that the apprentice grows up. The life of a follower is the life of transforming into his likeness. Over and over again this is the call.

In this series on Mark we saw that the opening chapters were experiences in Christology. We saw this radical Jesus, in action, much different than we might expect a religious figure to be. He was reforming religiondining with sinnershealing people and exorcising demons. (From Paul’s perspective Jesus was indeed ushering in a new age of eternity for all who would follow.) Eight chapters of Mark go by and a person witnessing first hand would be jaw-dropped and awed and probably overwhelmed and confused with the state of affairs. With all those healings and miraculous activity, let alone the crowds who embodied the great attention and local fame that is so alluring to most people, the disciples were no doubt drawn into Jesus even though they were not quite sure, even ignorant, to what he truly was (God).

And then in Mark 8:22 there is a shift in location and theme. The story had been set in and around Galilee, and now the 12 would begin following Jesus toward his destination – Jerusalem, where he would carry his cross and die the death of history.

In this middle road, along the journey now to the cross, removed from their homes, reflecting on the wonderfully bizarre journey with Jesus to date, they were no doubt overcome now with deep questions of identity. Who is this man? And what are we doing in this following of him?

Indeed we see that although they had been following Jesus they were blind: The traveling to Jerusalem begins and ends with Jesus healing a blind man (Mark 8:25 and10:52), signifying the figurative blindness of the disciples. Gaining sight is a lengthy process marked by ups and downs:

  • Jesus asks them what they think, and after some deliberation Peter offers, “You are the Messiah” (Mark 8:29).
  • In the very next scene, the same Peter, newly minted as a confessing “believer,” nevertheless shows his blindness so much that Jesus says to him, “Get behind me, Satan. You do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns” (8:33).

This process has been repeated countless times since then as followers become believers, and believers fall down. And in the process, believers become disciples, along the road to becoming like the master.

Are you on the road with Jesus? Are you engaged in the process? Are you willing to follow, and believe, and be rebuked, and stay along for the journey? One thing is needed, the presence of Jesus. Ask for his presence daily, and receive it. Walk with him today and always. Believing is a good step along the road, but it takes following him and walking still.

Childish Grace

July 12, 2010

Presently here I am working through 1) my own reflection’s on Mark and 2) Eugene Peterson’s Practice Resurrection. It is wonderful time again to see how the world-view of Jesus correlates with Paul’s.  In the most recent chapter Peterson explains grace as something we have to passively receive. And then I was reading Ernest Best on Mark (Disciples and Discipleship) and came across analysis on Jesus’ teaching in Mark 10:13-16 essentially saying the same thing:

The Kingdom is to be received as children receive. But how does a child receive? Commentators have written variously of the innocence, simplicity, ingenuousness, receptiveness of children. All such interpretations, apart from the last, tend to romanticise the child in a way foreign to the ancient world. … A child trusts adults; he has confidence in them; he receives from them what they offer. So the disciple is to trust God and receive the Kingdom. The Kingdom is not a place or a thing; it is God’s active rule; the disciple has therefore to allow God to rule in his life. This is not something which is completed once and for all in the act of becoming a disciple, but something which takes place continuously; hence the appropriateness of our pericope to a context of discipleship.” Ernest Best

It is wonderful time again to see how the world-view of Jesus correlates with Paul’s.  Peterson (on Paul) and Best (on Mark) describe the art of relating with God in correlating yet different ways. Peterson uses the metaphor of floating, and the term “acquired passivity.” Best uses the image of a child. These are attempts at describing the transcendent relationship and the often misunderstood concept of grace. How do we live the abundant life with God? By grace, like children.

Audio: Freedom

July 6, 2010
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by T.C. Porter

Practice Grace

July 5, 2010

Chapter Sum

To arrive in the charmed life that is the opening chapter of Ephesians – to enjoy the destiny in God’s glory – we must live with an acquired passivity: acquired because in this world the glory goes to the energetic and ambitious. But once you learn how to receive grace you become like an Olympic swimmer gliding while afloat atop the water. And in your good work you will truly be a conduit of God.

Reflection

Sure the Olympian swimmer is “working,” but she is also harnessing the power of the water, and her body. Indeed, a good swimmer will often be described as “graceful” – as is the cheetah while running, or anyone doing what they are best at. Meanwhile I can work very hard in the water and not come close to anything that would be deemed “graceful.” And so our secular vernacular is embodying a biblical truth that is so often difficult to explain, this relationship between grace and works. A Christian can be working very hard at many things that might be deemed noble, without coming within miles of grace, or harnessing the power of God. I think the call for us is to endeavor prayerfully, to slow down enough to ask God to really enlighten us and show us his grace, to be the wind in our sails or the very water upon which we are afloat, and then and only then will we embody grace in our, so that we may truly “do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do” (Eph. 2:10).

Notes

Train-ride metaphor

After the exhilarating opening chapter of Ephesians there is the abrupt first verse: “You were dead” (2:1). The concept of resurrection life is one thing. Living in it is another. It’s one thing to look at it as if from a passenger train, enjoying the scenery, the ups and downs, the wilderness and cities. It’s another thing to go out into it and live it. I think we need to see that the call daily is to move from the passenger car out into the landscape of the resurrection life with its promise and peril, not being spectators. As Peterson says this takes “a patient, long-suffering reorientation in the resurrection conditions that prevail in this country, living into the ‘full nature of Christ’ (4:13), our resurrection pioneer and companion. (p. 90)

Acquired Passivity

Culture not conducive to grace

Passivity has a “bad odor” in our culture.

“Energy and ambition, single-minded purpose, an undistracted and unswerving race for the finish, and e7ye-on-the-ball concentration go a long way in making money, acquiring academic degrees, winning wars, climbing Mt. Everest, and hitting home runs. This is undisputable. But such goals, all of them much lauded by our culture, have very little to do in themselves with living a mature life, living ‘to the praise of his glory. (p. 90)

“Competitive ambition and the accompanying disciplines that bring about its achievement can be pursed, without conscience, without love, without compassion, without humility, without generosity, without righteousness, without holiness. Which is to say, quite apart from maturity. Immature entertainment celebrities are on display on every street corner. Immature millionaires routinely walk out on their families. Immature scholars and scientists who collect Nobel Prizes make do with estranged and godless lives. Immature star athletes regularly embarrass their coaches and fans by infantile and adolescent, sometimes criminal behavior. (90-91)

“These are the men and women who set the standards for a life fueled by ambition, getting to the top, making a name for themselves, beating out the competition. … we realize how radically different they are from the life of Jesus and the resurrection life of Jesus that Paul uses as his text for living a mature human life.” (p. 91)

Unfortunately the successful American cross-breeds with the Christian to beget “a hybrid: American Christian, Christian America.” The best of the modern world, American, and the best of the biblical world, Christian: hybrid Christians.”

Our Christian forefathers however lived beside Hebrews and Greeks who shared the ambitious values of modern Americans; but the biblical standard is that God’s people live markedly different lives.

“The stories of Abraham and Moses, Elijah and Jeremiah, Daniel and Esther are all energetically countercultural. Our pioneering Christian ancestors lived as neighbors alongside the descendants of the highly civilized and accomplished Greeks and Romans, and they participated in the economies that were provided for them and the learning that was accessible to them. At the same time, they were uncompromising in their rejection of the divine pretensions and sexual profligacies of their leaders in government and the arts, and the superficial idolatries in all the so-called best families.” (p. 92)

The cross is a stumbling block and folly a culture in America that worships self indulgence and power and divinizes human achievement. Breeding American ambition and Christian values begets a tame Christianity without a cross – without Jesus. The image of God in humans is lost. (p. 93)

Like learning to swim

“Grace is everywhere to be experienced but nowhere to be explained.” It is like water. One can exert all the energy possible, struggling mightily, and still die in its presence. Or one can relax and learn to float, miraculously buoyant.

Hence our shift from ambitious to grace-led comes when we realize it is not what we do, but what we participate in. We participate with “a willed-passivity.”

I think of Jesus’ language of the kingdom of heaven, which is in our midst, and his directive to deny ourselves, lose our life and then we gain it. Peterson is using different terms, inviting us to acquire a willed passivity while “giving ourselves up to what is previous to us, the presence and action of God” (p. 95).

“But that terra firma, feet-on-the-ground self is hard to give up (95). … In fifty years of being a pastor, my most difficult assignment continues to be the task of developing a sense among the people I serve of the soul-transforming implications of grace—a comprehensive, foundational reorientation from living anxiously by my wits and muscle to living effortlessly in the world of God’s active presence.  The prevailing North American culture (not much different from the Assyrian, Babylonian, Egyptian, Persian, Greek and Roman cultures in which our biblical ancestors lived) is, to all intents and purposes, a context of persistent denial of grace.” (96)

Grace and Works

In Ephesians 2:10 grace and good works are at home together. We do not work for our employers. We work for God. We were created for his work, which he performs through us by grace. Creation itself was a good work. We see that God in essence is at work, and as image bearers we too are at work. We learn from his creative act of Genesis in that 1) each day God looked at his work and said it was good; 2) God rested. (99-101)

Seven times in this week of work, God paused, looked over his work, and pronounced it good. The final ‘good’ was intensified to ‘very good.’ Good work, indeed.” Peterson, p. 101

All work is a gift. God’s work was a gift. We are a gift. The work we do is a gift. We complete the circle. A gift is free. It is not out of necessity or demand. See your work as a gift. Float on the water of work.

Work as a Form of Glory

Jesus embodied this marriage of grace and work. He was the beginning (John 1:1). He was “full of grace” (1:14). He was doing the Father’s work (5:36, 10:25). Ironically, it was Jesus’ work – feeding the hungry, healing the sick, prophesying in the synagogue – that provoked criticism and rejection. “His contemporaries found it far easier to believe in an invisible God than in a visible God.” (p. 102)

Formed in submission and obedience by Genesis rhythms and images, we mature into a life of ‘good works, which God prepared beforehand to be our way of life. … Good work and good works are to grace what a pail is to water: a container to get it from the well to the super table. God’s grace is the content. Our work (after the manner of Jesus) is the container.” Peterson, p. 103

There are two distortions of work: secularized and pietist. The secular distortion fails to be attentive and meditative about work; failing to keep it in the context of Genesis and God’s ideal of goodness, rest and purpose. The pietist fails to observe and listen carefully regarding Jesus’ context for work.

“The secularist romanticizes work. The pietist spiritualizes work.”

“In the practice of resurrection we live not in terms of what we make of ourselves but in terms of what God makes us.” (104)

Work is romanticized when it is a way of significance, a way to be known or have lots of money, a way to be godlike without dealing with God. Romanticized work is glamorous and focuses on heavy payoffs, a high adrenalin content, satisfaction – reaching “full potential.” But observe Genesis work week:  Each day is matter-of-fact, without embellishment, simply “good.” The worker is invisible. The work itself – the container – is what is seen.

Reflection: This is too often a problem in the church. Too often in the name of God we are being romantic workers for the purposes described above: to draw attention to ourselves, to be gods, to have a big payoff.

“The most conspicuous distortion among romanticizers comes through the omission of Sabbath.” The work itself is never done. No wonder we drink so much coffee. (p. 104)

Pietistic  work fails to see how Jesus went about his work. It spiritualizes work. Pietistic work is desecularized and religious: prayer, evangelism, worship. It is the work of the pastor, missionary, preacher. It despiritualizes what is the majority of work, the cleaning of clothes, preparing of food, carpooling, worker for hire, assembly line, grunt work. Church work is seen as “the Lord’s work.”

But such a view is only accomplished by ignoring the work of Jesus. His work was ordinary, everyday, seeds and bread, people, birds, widows and children. His time was spent with the non-religious, fishermen, tax collectors, lepers, prostitutes. Meanwhile he openly disregarded religious practices such as fasting, praying in public, conventional Sabbath ritual.

By Lori. Click for her page.

Freedom Day

July 4, 2010
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by T.C. Porter
  • Based on Mark 8:34-9:1 and other teachings of Jesus
  • Something that might be said at today’s 4th of July picnic

You know today we celebrate freedom. It’s our country’s 234th birthday – and this country is like an all you can eat buffet. There’s really no limit to what we can do. We are free to pursue our dreams and never go hungry, and enjoy our passions.

Spiritual freedom, freedom that Jesus brings us, is something different altogether. In fact true freedom is opposed to the freedom to do whatever I want. Because me chasing around and pursuing everything that feels good, that is not freedom at all: I am a slave to my desires. The more I get the more I want. And I become not free but burdened by too much of a good thing, over and over again.

Jesus came and brought freedom from all that, but to me at first it didn’t look like freedom, it looked like a dull life: He said that whoever wants to gain life must first lose it, must deny him or herself. So you see, freedom is self denial. Freedom is not going without the things I want, it’s going me. Don’t deny yourself of your passions, deny yourself altogether.

It’s upside down logic, it’s far from what the world is telling you to do. But a strange and wonderful thing happens when you walk away from the all-you-can-eat buffet hungry. You find freedom. You are liberated.

When I am empty, when I deny myself, I am open, free, liberated. That is when I experience love. And this kind of freedom, this love, is not independence but rather interdependence, which is what all people are made for. When I was full of myself I was independent and free to do what I want … and deep down I was lonely.

But now the best thing that happens for me in my marriage and for my family is when by the gift of God I deny myself. This is how it works best for all of us. It is not what we want to hear at first but Jesus is willing to tell us not what we want but what we need, and what the world needs. And what we need is freedom and independence from ourselves.

That is the secret to the kingdom of heaven, a place where people live in interdependence because they deny themselves and live for the greater good. Only in denial can you be empty to receive the great flood of the Spirit which will sweep you away into the great place of joy.

Happy Interdependence Day.

Practice Sainthood

July 2, 2010

  • Book notes: “Paul and the Saints: Ephesians 1:15-23″, Chapter 4 of Eugene Peterson’s Practice Resurrection

Chapter Sum

Sainthood might seem like a lofty destination that we may reach at some distant time and location, if ever. But the fact is we are already here, because our identity is bound up in God and his destiny for us. And other people have arrived as well. We need not wonder where the magic mountain is for it is beneath our feet. The saints around us, those whom God has blessed, chosen, destined, bestowed, lavished, made known and gathered up (the seven verbs from last chapter) … these are the saints. This is it.

Notes

Realizing that God blesses us, we submit to the blessing. But it is not easy, and it takes time. God is looking for us, seeking us – it all starts with God. We tend to start with ourselves, however, and this shift In thinking takes a while to settle in (p. 69-70).

We need new language. Prayer is that language. Prayer is existential, “all-involving way of life” (p. 70). This is not special words for special holy times. God is in every sentence. Baptism redefines our living, gives birth to something new. Our language takes on this newness. It will take deliberation and attention before we become fluent in our new language. “It is not long before our language exudes what we are living” (p. 71).

“I remember you in my prayers”

Paul models this language, as one sentence merges into the next with no clear boundaries as to what is prayer and what is the rest. It’s all prayer. Clearly he is speaking in prayer language in Ephesians 1:15-23. He is praying for five gifts of blessing for the recipient:

  1. wisdom and revelation (v. 17),
  2. an enlightened heart (18),
  3. hope (18),
  4. the riches of his glorious inheritance (18) and
  5. the immeasurable greatness of his power (19).

Such power stems from four interrelated actions which detail how God works this power in Christ: 1) god raised Christ from the dead; 2) he seated him at his right hand; 3) He put all things under his feet; 4) he made him head over all things for the church.

This packs a lot, quite a punch, particularly on the heels of the seven-fold verbing of God in the previous section … and particularly when we realize this: The power is not reserved for a later time at a greater place. It is all to happen right here. “This is the country that we live in. Here. Now.” (p. 73)

How this happens in the now is largely a matter of our language. “What we are after in the practice of resurrection is a way of language in which the word of God to us is continuously implicit in the way we use words, both in response to God and in relation to one another. It is a fluency and habit in the use of language that is comprehensive of all that God says and does and that is thoroughly dialogical, conversational” (p. 73)

And again this language is not something we turn on and off in special, holy times and places but rather a holistic way of speech. Said Martin Thornton, “Prayer, quite simply, is the total experience of the Christian man and woman.” *

We pray when we are meditatively quiet before God with Psalm 118 open before us; we pray while taking out the garbage; we pray when we are losing our grip and then ask God for help; we pray when we are weeding the garden; we pray when we are asking God to help a friend who is at the end of her rope; we pray when we are writing a letter; we pray when we are in conversation with our cynical and bullying boss; we pray with our friends in church; we pray walking down Main Street in the company of strangers.” Peterson, p. 74

“I am not saying (nor is Thornton) that everything we do is prayer, but that everything we do and say and think can be prayer.” To this degree we in the missional camp agree – “everything we docan be prayer.” (p. 74)

Peterson tells of John Wright Follette, a prayer leader, getting it right by not telling Peterson, then 16, how to pray. Follette went so far as to say he hadn’t prayed for forty years, just to keep Peterson from trying to copy his technique. That is to say, prayer is not a list or set of tasks or a code to crack. We all need to experiment, practice and internalize this language and discover prayer for ourselves in David’s Psalms, Paul’s Ephesians and Jesus’ prayers (p. 75-76).

“All the Saints”

Just as prayer is not some special far away language, saints are not some special far away people. Paul addresses the letter to the saints (Greek: agios), who are all the people of the congregation without qualification. A saint is a holy one. He uses this work nine times in Ephesians. The word Christian, which only appears three times in the New Testament, went on to supplant saint as a term referring to those in the church.

This term saint gives distance from Paul. We feel uncomfortable. We see a saint as someone high and exalted, holy, a person of unattainable character. We see a mixed bag of people around us. But a saint is one blessed by God, holy in God’s eyes. A holy one in the making (p. 77).

“Paul deliberately chooses a word that identifies us by what God does in and for us, not what we do for God. He re-identifies us as creatures of God, saved by Jesus, formed for holiness by the Spirit. He is retraining our imaginations to understand ourselves not in terms of how we feel about ourselves and not in terms of how others treat us, but as God feels about us and treats us.” Peterson, p. 78

Saint is a word that defines you in terms of God and what he is doing in your life. This requires a shift in how we see ourselves and others in a society where people are tested, admired, despised, flattered, scorned, kissed, kicked. The world defines how we see everyone in institutional ways – how valuable people are. God values us differently (p. 78).

Rather than settling for our earthly identity (social security number, etc.) why not settle for the big destiny God has in mind, the saint in the making?

Now, is Paul piously disillusioned? Is he serious? Saint refers to who people are not by any other mark but who they are in God. God’s intent and God’s action is what defines people. And it is has always been this way. “God, it seems, is not squeamish aobut keeping company with the worst and the most vile” (p. 80).

Jesus “wasted time” on the “small potatoes.” He was a “holy paradox. Divine mystery.” He “went for the jugulars of real, specific persons God brought into his influence.” (p. 81)

Jesus was a real participant in real life with real people. And in the bowels of our church we are called to work as Jesus did. (p. 82)

Reflection: As a self-professed reformer I am prone to want to leave my imperfect world and set up a new counter-culture of Christian perfection. AAC itself is a rebellion of sorts, a church without walls, an idealistic conglomeration of kindness. But will we have the staying power to dig in and do life with one another in all our stuff, in all my stuff, in all your stuff?

“we have become like the rubbish of the world, the dregs of all things” 1 Cor. 4:13

The dregs are brought together in a family not by birth or politics or intelligence or anything else, but by baptism. We have been born into this thing together. We the saints. And now we practice Jesus together. We practice resurrection. Jesus lived in the ordinary, day to day work and routines, and he rose. We shall do the same in this resurrection life as we follow him and keep company with these people whom God (not we) have chosen. (p. 83)

“Is it here. We are on it. It is under us.”

Peterson tells a story of driving, looking for a landmark, a place people drove out of their way to see. The signs pointed to it, but there was never a sign saying, “you are hear.” It just krept up on you and before you knew it you were there. It was under you. That’s how it is in this resurrection life with fellow saints. You just sort of arrive. Don’t miss it. It is here. The sacred ground is under you (p. 84-7).


* Martin Thornton, Pastoral Theology: A Reorientation (London: SPCK, 1964), p. 4.

Putting Away Pride

July 1, 2010
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by Melissa Regas

As the time approached for him to be taken up to heaven, Jesus resolutely set out for Jerusalem. And he sent messengers  on ahead, who went into a Samaritan village to get things ready for him; but the people there did not welcome him because he was heading for Jerusalem. When the disciples James and John saw this, they asked, “Lord do you want us to call fire down from heaven to destroy them?” But Jesus turned and rebuked them. Then he and his disciples went to another village.” Luke 9:51-56

I was struck by this verse. First, Jesus is preparing spiritually, mentally, emotionally and physically for what he knows is to come. I can’t image that to be an easy process. What he is about to do is save his people, be ridiculed, rejected and endure one of the most painful death process of that time. I don’t know about you, but I would most likely be having a panic attack. Meanwhile his disciples are kind of clueless about what is really about to take place. They are a little absorbed in their world. Did they not notice the change in Jesus’ demeanor? While I sense that Jesus was always intense, serious at the same time loving and joyful. I am quite sure that his attitude was somewhat different as the days drew closer to palm sunday, munday thursday and good friday.  We have to remember Jesus felt emotions and pain.

In this verse the disciples were trying to do the “godly thing” and punish people for their sins. There is an attitude of “holiness” that I sense from the disciples in this passage. Sometimes as Christ-followers, our pride of being “in the family” with the big kahuna (that would be GOD), can distort our perspective and side-track us from why we are here. To know the heart of Jesus, God and the Holy Spirit, to love each other through and from that love. Being a Christ-follower doesn’t mean throwing fires of Bible verses in a person’s face to shame them. That is completely missing the point!

The disciples were missing the bigger picture here. In the end of the passage it states “but Jesus turned and rebuked them.” This has a double meaning for me. He rebuked the town for not accepting him. At the same time, I perceived he was also rebuking the disciples for being blind with pride of having the “skills” to be able to “request fire” from God; rather than not forgiving with love or being there for Jesus, realizing that something huge is about to happen. Their best friend is about to die (for them) and go to heaven. Their world is going to change drastically.

Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me. For whoever loses their life for me will save it. What good is it for you to gain the whole world and yet lose or forfeit tour very self? If any of you are ashamed of me and my words, the Son of Man will be ashamed of you when he comes in his glory and in the glory of the Father and of the Holy angels. Truly I tell you, some who are standing here will not taste death before they see the kingdom of God.” Luke 9:23-27

It’s easy to get into a certain flow being in a relationship with God. We have to continually keep our eyes, hearts, minds and ears open to allowing out Lord to teach, guide and use us. True daily reality check when looking in the spiritual mirror. One of the challenges of being a follower of Christ is sometimes one takes pride in that “title” (showing off the gold crosses) and holds onto the name rather than living the description. We might be missing something big that God is doing.

My prayer is that we don’t allow ourselves to get comfortable where we are, who we think we are or in what we know. God is always preparing us for what’s to come, teaching us to be ready for anything.